Persistent failure that does not appear to be getting any better faces me. After 11 years of being married and two separations there still seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel. Today, I went through my divorce filings from four years ago and my wife still denies any wrongdoing, essentially I am lying and she is not. With her having a credit card open, racking up debt, our ten-year-old being through hell in our marriage, two smaller sons with much more life to live, and a life that seems out of control being married, I wonder where to go and how to best respond according to His will.
I read the following, “Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me. You prepare a feast for me in the presence of my enemies. You honor me by anointing my head with oil. My cup overflows with blessings.” Psalms 23:4-5
David, a man after God’s own heart, who was also an adulterer, murderer, and whose son tried to kill him, went through anguish, trials, and glimpses of hell. Regardless of what life throws at us, we should be confident that God is with us if we are followers of Him. If we are obedient, repentant, and fear the Lord, He will have us in the midst of isolation, uncertainty, tragedy, and heartache. I may lose a lot on this earth due to what inevitably seems to be my third separation from my wife, but He has a purpose and will not forsake me. We live for Him. We are merely pilgrims passing through this life. Our lives are just a dot in the time continuum that is infinite in eternity. This is our moment and our test. Live for the Lord. He does not guarantee the outcome we always envision nor comfort, but with obedience comes reward. Let Him lead you, stay in His Word, be quiet and listen, and He will direct your paths.
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart; and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.” (Proverbs 3:5-6)