No words can quite capture the feeling I have of utter shock and sadness. Yesterday, I was served a preliminary protective order by a sheriff at my house. He told me to leave the house as soon as possible, that my wife feels her and the kids are endangered by me, and that if I am found in the home when she arrives, then she could press charges and have me arrested. For the past three days with her being gone with the kids unannounced she has been plotting this. Now, I have retained my attorney and we will fight another battle. My wife is destroying our finances, our family, and now I cannot see our kids. I left the house after putting everything I could get into my car as quick as possible and had no idea where I would go next. I decided to pitch a tent in the woods. However, once I finally got it up it began pouring down rain and I still had a workday to work. Driving another hour back to the office, I then started work and got done around 1 a.m. I brought a sleeping bag and a pill and laid down in the conference room floor. Not being supposed to sleep in the office, I went to bed around 2 a.m. and woke back up again at 5 a.m. to prevent anyone I work with seeing me laying down on the floor of our conference room.
My wife is out to hurt me, destroy me, and in the process ruin all we have. Still using her personal credit cards, she will max them out to over $30,000 in three months’ time. What is the purpose of this torture? Why won’t she love me. What causes her to be possessed by the devil? I may never know in this lifetime. The church despite my additional texts to them did not assist me. Meanwhile, this morning, I had three supervisors all sit down with me, see how am I doing, tell me they are here to support me, and helped me. My one boss is trying to find housing for me or allow me to live remotely with my parents for at least an interim amount of time. He was not too keen on my sleeping in a tent. He also connected me with the JAG. The church was the opposite with me. So sad. Tonight, I decided to stay at a hotel, since I am so exhausted. Tomorrow, I will more than likely spend the night inside the tent after work. My life has been quite the tumultuous ride since marrying my wife. I love her, but she hates me. Now I will try my best with God’s help to defend her arguments of me being abusive, instead show how she is the abuser again.
Lord, help me. Protect our family, our kids, and my well-being. I do not have many friends I can turn to. Keep Satan away from me. You have me and may your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight” (Proverbs 3:5-7).